Many times in my life I have settled for what is expected of me. Many times I followed what I was supposed to do and often I fell short there as well. Far to often I did not truly follow my heart or my passion and I wondered why I felt hollow inside. Reaching the crossroads of my life that prompted my original attempt at this epic journey, I realized that I could either push for more or I could continue to settle. In this blog I am going to talk about what is on the agenda to make another attempt at the completion of this journey and the prospect of the consequences of reaching for what I want. Many feelings are flowing through me right now and well I am not really sure if this the dumbest thing I have ever tried to do or if I should just accept it for what it is hunker down assume the roles that are expected and just fall back into the fold.
As I have stated in recent blogs I have felt lost and out of touch with the world since returning. Those feelings are starting to dissipate and my life is starting to click together. Recently being stiffed by a former Company for the Sum of 6k has put me in a financial bind and that is a concern. Running out of time and money along with being injured has made life a little trying as of late and not in ways though that I can not overcome. But and there is always a but, my life has been filled with so much joy and true excitement from this journey and not to mention the lessons I learned that some things have become clear that just like anyone there are things that I want out of life and well being normal is just not one of them.
Work is taking precedence at this moment in my life. Without it none of this happens however there are different options for this to occur. I can find a job and work towards my goal so I can continue to write, travel and have the adventure of a lifetime. I am currently being sought after by two cycling magazines about lessons from the road articles, nothing large and I have them almost done and well of course there is the book in progress. Today I met with a young man and we are going to be pumping out a series of Kindle books that will be covering very specific topics in greater detail than the blogs. These could be on the market using the latest technology as early as Christmas so please keep an eye out for them.
I have been working on my relationship with Schwinn and earlier today submitted a blog for their website. This will be my introduction through Schwinn to their millions of followers. They are on full tilt for the return to the road. It is rather exciting to have a relationship with such a large international company, they are supplying the latest version of their Vantage F1 hybrid bike for my return to the road. I will comment on this as things move forward.
Yes these are all good things I know but I still feel trapped I feel as if my world is being forced one way when my heart is in another direction. I still have many things to do but I can not shake this feeling that there is something more for me to accomplish. While out on the road I came to terms with so much I addressed some of my demons and a ton of things were put in the proper perspective. Just there is this nagging feeling that I want more. There is one person's advice that has actually guided me well over this past year despite us not talking much (beyond my control but maybe in the near future this friend who I reconnected with last year may be able to help me with, heck I wonder if they even read these things, but doesn't matter I will figure it out it just would be nice to get some feedback). In the meantime I plan on sticking to the basics.
My work outs are starting to step it up a notch weights are being added to my leg exercises and well the entire process is grueling. I start back to two a day workouts this monday morning will consist of leg and cycling while the evening will consist of endurance and overall conditioning. Maybe this will help clear the fog.
But here are the basics Find work, work towards my passion, reach out to prospective sponsors and write my blogs. I was once asked how I can find a way to live a life of adventure and still move forward. Well I am working on that. It is not an easy task to change ones entire life but I am working diligently on it. I just hope it pays off again this goes back to trusting in the universe. Tougher than you might think especially when you are on your own to do it......
